tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post6484322924384515851..comments2024-02-11T03:39:05.836-05:00Comments on still life with circles: Impossible thingsstill life angiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15150141781089602529noreply@blogger.comBlogger26125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-71512089264802625872010-05-03T05:08:27.926-04:002010-05-03T05:08:27.926-04:00beautiful necklace!
for all the once-close "...beautiful necklace!<br /><br />for all the once-close "friends" I've lost, an unexpected stranger has filled that hole..Bethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05007474885671559328noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-41275128088979871902010-04-28T11:41:04.478-04:002010-04-28T11:41:04.478-04:00Sigh... beautiful post. The necklace made me bawl....Sigh... beautiful post. The necklace made me bawl... what an awesome neighbour and friend. There is light where we don't expect it. xoxoAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-73104075345408994392010-04-27T20:42:20.729-04:002010-04-27T20:42:20.729-04:00I too am amazed at the people who I thought were i...I too am amazed at the people who I thought were insignifacant in my life but who rose to the occasion. Who faced my grief head on and then road the train with me a while. I value those people so much.<br /><br />Your neighbour is a sweetheart. I can only hope I can be like that for someone else one day too.Sophiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17663682329663202706noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-26705196327376195382010-04-27T17:03:59.755-04:002010-04-27T17:03:59.755-04:00such a beautiful post, Angie, it brought me to tea...such a beautiful post, Angie, it brought me to tears.<br />and yes, new possibilities. Here's to new impossible possibilities and new friendships.<br />Beatrice, Lucy, Thor. All yours.<br />xoxojanishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14326099151319592743noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-76916114185444187272010-04-27T15:17:31.985-04:002010-04-27T15:17:31.985-04:00I'm so glad you received something so special ...I'm so glad you received something so special and that your neighbor remembered.Hollyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15431384515813384025noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-83302773399438555982010-04-27T13:51:53.581-04:002010-04-27T13:51:53.581-04:00Beautiful, Angie. Sending much love.Beautiful, Angie. Sending much love.Moniquehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04188684792415196300noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-42077124125521797142010-04-27T11:52:39.620-04:002010-04-27T11:52:39.620-04:00A tear. A laugh. Sincere happiness for you. Seeing...A tear. A laugh. Sincere happiness for you. Seeing you've written a post makes my day.Rachelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09811996974976569965noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-90570404483350201582010-04-27T01:03:05.677-04:002010-04-27T01:03:05.677-04:00Angie,
I always mark your posts and wait until I r...Angie,<br />I always mark your posts and wait until I really have time to sit and read and digest. I savor them. This was just about perfection to me. It makes me want to call you and talk because damn, YES and so true, all of it.<br />I remember and still to this day on the occasional night when Cason wakes in the wee hours, never ever feeling the same "OH MY GOD CHILD GO TO SLEEP" angst that I had with my first two. The sleeplesness with Cason was so welcome. The waking hours with him, bliss. <br />I slept like a log after I lost Caleb. I, like you, was a hopeless insomniac before. Always needing some sort of 'aid' to help me cross over. But after he died, all I did was sleep. I did only what I needed to do for my two living kids and then I slept. And I resented it too. All that sleep. I felt guilty that I could close my eyes and forget. But I did.<br />Losing sleep over a living child is infinately easier than losing it over a dead one. Isn't that an awful thing to even say outloud?<br /><br />I love your friends quote about the strong. I think that my friends were equally lost in helping me, just as I was equally lost in asking for the help. I hid from all of them. Even bringing my daughter to school late on purpose to avoid seeing them. Beyond bringing meals and emails they were lost. But, like your neighbor did for you, others popped up for me as well. And they are who I confide in now. I know they won't wince if I say something about Caleb. And I am forever thankful for these women who said to me I am here, I am not afraid and I will be your friend who remembers him.<br /><br />A long time ago, I posted one of my favorite poems from Through the Looking Glass...<br />http://thisisnotwhatihadplanned.blogspot.com/2007/12/dreams.html<br /><br />You posting from the book now, it just reinforces how connected we are.<br /><br />A beautiful, moving piece.<br />xxook@laklyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05366772609212990882noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-66758408326383210032010-04-26T20:58:02.240-04:002010-04-26T20:58:02.240-04:00you write so beautifully, it really only takes the...you write so beautifully, it really only takes the friendship of one or two people who are perfect for you to help you through . for me, out of dozens of close friends, this is how it has ended up. these few friends that have stuck by me though are my angels and everything about the way they are with me and they way they talk about harvey and acknowledge my grief couldn't be more perfect. i'm glad you have someone like that in your life and i'm glad she lives so close xxx hugs, annedotalothttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08732541656893319030noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-65591810423887839782010-04-26T20:12:35.559-04:002010-04-26T20:12:35.559-04:00It's nice to know that there are people like y...It's nice to know that there are people like your neighbor out there. Beautiful post, as always.<br /><br />Sending love...BluebirdSinginghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11717120649352815715noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-63258351236334643032010-04-26T20:09:12.055-04:002010-04-26T20:09:12.055-04:00A boppy to hold up the baby and one of those neck ...A boppy to hold up the baby and one of those neck pillows to hold up your neck. I got lots of sitting up sleep like that. :)HereWeGoAJenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17457680345376171720noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-64741400153275644532010-04-26T19:37:56.438-04:002010-04-26T19:37:56.438-04:00Beautiful post, Angie. It made me smile so many ti...Beautiful post, Angie. It made me smile so many times. I am so happy you are in the place you are in right now.<br />xoHope's Mamahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04984543289642681339noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-61759068897965829972010-04-26T18:22:39.926-04:002010-04-26T18:22:39.926-04:00What an awesome friend you have in your neighbor! ...What an awesome friend you have in your neighbor! We were similarly lucky (before we moved, anyway). <br /><br />There's nothing like a good neighbor.<br /><br />Glad you got some time with Lucy.TracyOChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16227348728165440844noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-67539638244786576312010-04-26T17:47:14.413-04:002010-04-26T17:47:14.413-04:00what a gift to have this woman as your friend and ...what a gift to have this woman as your friend and neighbor. wish there were more people like that out there- that weren't afraid of us, of our truth, of life.<br />sending you love<br />xoxalizahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09435679393472275569noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-49812917936037593192010-04-26T17:34:42.152-04:002010-04-26T17:34:42.152-04:00I am glad you found a friend in your neighbor. It ...I am glad you found a friend in your neighbor. It is very true. The good friends are not afraid of talking about our dead babies. They don't feel awkward when we mention the pregnancy or the delivery. What a beautiful gift she gave you.Franciscahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06906704416048827050noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-36034474219883438322010-04-26T17:20:37.610-04:002010-04-26T17:20:37.610-04:00I too was astonished when I finally "looked&q...I too was astonished when I finally "looked" and realized the friendships that had risen out of the ashes. Thankfully I have those few who get it and get me.Unknownhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14349156717080797586noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-78420155873793206242010-04-26T17:01:34.232-04:002010-04-26T17:01:34.232-04:00I read this nodding. I LOVE the sounds of my boy&#...I read this nodding. I LOVE the sounds of my boy's screams - SO alive. I also slept and slept and slept after Emma died - ultimate escapism (and I suspected depression too).<br /><br />I too have embraced the sadness as part of the happiness and the way it connects me to Emma.Fireflyforeverhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15290560217994184778noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-57762165859418720722010-04-26T16:45:26.783-04:002010-04-26T16:45:26.783-04:00oh Ang, can I get through, like, one of your posts...oh Ang, can I get through, like, one of your posts and not get all teary?? Probably not. Because your words speak to me. In so many ways. <br /><br />Sometimes we (M and I) feel so damn cursed and unlucky. I need to stop and remember how lucky I am to have both him, and you, and our babyloss friends in my life. Because it would be terribly, terribly bleak without all of that love. I need to pay more attention to the love than the hurt it is trying to heal. <br /><br />Love this post.mhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07830332489753742950noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-35803308003991466502010-04-26T15:50:29.365-04:002010-04-26T15:50:29.365-04:00I have neighbors like that. I have a SIL like tha...I have neighbors like that. I have a SIL like that, a neighbor from my old state like that, friends like that. And while I'm so eternally grateful that they're there, for some reason they seem to shine a spotlight on the unfitting pegs. I laid my hammer down long ago, and yet those fucking pegs still pop out and manage to make my walls sag. Drives me nuts.<br /><br />I couldn't sleep after Maddy died -- far too many nightmares, and it hurt too much to wake up. So I guess I'm predicting sleeplessness for myself, no matter the outcome. The rest I could get used to.<br /><br />There's always an adrenaline let-down and I imagine for those like us it's more than most. Go easy on you.Tashhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07376651134993450207noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-4267368743864490982010-04-26T15:40:18.037-04:002010-04-26T15:40:18.037-04:00The following SUMMARIES OF OVER 1400 JEHOVAH'S...The following SUMMARIES OF OVER 1400 JEHOVAH'S WITNESSES CRIMINAL and CIVIL COURT CASES will provide the BEST and MOST ACCURATE info about Jehovah's Witnesses, their beliefs, and how they ACTUALLY practice such day to day.<br /><br /> <br />The following website summarizes 900 court cases and lawsuits affecting children of Jehovah's Witness Parents, including 400 cases where the JW Parents refused to consent to life-saving blood transfusions for their dying children, as well as nearly 400 CRIMINAL cases -- most involving MURDERS:<br /> <br />DIVORCE, BLOOD TRANSFUSIONS, AND OTHER LEGAL ISSUES AFFECTING CHILDREN OF JEHOVAH'S WITNESSES<br /> <br />jwdivorces.bravehost.com<br /> <br /> <br />The following website summarizes over 500 lawsuits filed by Jehovah's Witnesses against their Employers, incidents involving problem JW Employees, and other secret JW "history" court cases:<br /> <br />EMPLOYMENT ISSUES UNIQUE TO JEHOVAH'S WITNESS EMPLOYEES<br /> <br />jwemployees.bravehost.comJJoneshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04519473770669042975noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-24969668690172310012010-04-26T15:39:20.781-04:002010-04-26T15:39:20.781-04:00This is such a beautiful post, Angie. I've bee...This is such a beautiful post, Angie. I've been thinking a lot about trying to hammer pegs into different shapes recently, having been hammering away at a few over the past two years. I'm hoping that there might be a place for the odd square peg at some point in the future; that just because they don't fit right now (or I don't) that it might not be a permanent mismatch. <br /><br />xafter irishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13228758569220259464noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-68243333498661107542010-04-26T14:59:41.531-04:002010-04-26T14:59:41.531-04:00Someone gave me a similar necklace with my two boy...Someone gave me a similar necklace with my two boys' names - I don't even like it, its cheesy looking, but it touched me so. Love this post Angie.ezra'smommyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17342399045659116165noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-14474935302768330002010-04-26T14:39:59.425-04:002010-04-26T14:39:59.425-04:00Angie, what a wonderful friend you have in your ne...Angie, what a wonderful friend you have in your neighbour.<br />(Oh and I had weetabix with soy milk for breakfast this morning too!)<br />xJeanettehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11423818333034603238noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-75808072722636797452010-04-26T14:39:48.127-04:002010-04-26T14:39:48.127-04:00What a beautiful post and a beautiful neighbor! I ...What a beautiful post and a beautiful neighbor! I am so happy you have someone like that, even if it's not from the people you expected.CLChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08030787972960755420noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8013443217504323406.post-66239329438728021792010-04-26T14:11:40.954-04:002010-04-26T14:11:40.954-04:00What an amazing friend you have. That necklace . ....What an amazing friend you have. That necklace . . . I'm sure you'll cherish it forever. Lucky you to have such a wonderful person in your life!<br /><br />It's true that people kind of filter in and out, and when the worst possible thing happens to you, you can see clearly who's by your side.<br /><br />It may not be everyone, but those round pegs are worth a million square ones.Mary Bethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12212750107782259674noreply@blogger.com