I didn't know how hard it was to walk, until I had to leave the hospital without you.
I didn't know how wide my love expanded, Lucy. I suspected, but I didn't know.
I didn't know how beautiful and tragic, peaceful and cruel, a birth could be until I birthed you.
I didn't know, Lucy, how simply in awe of your perfection I could be even though I could not keep you forever.
I didn't know how very much I could miss someone until I missed you for six months, Lucy, my beautiful daughter. We all miss you so much.
six prayers for lucia.
Abiding with you at 6 months dear Angie. Holding you, Sam, Bea and sweet baby Lucy so close in my heart.
ReplyDelete6 months was hard. Thinking of you and your family.
ReplyDeletei miss you, lucy. i ache for you and also for you, sister. i am so grateful i got to kiss those beautiful lips. so grateful i got to see you in your mama's arms. so grateful i had a chance to smell your sweet lucy smell. and i am also so very very sad we don't have you with us now. i love you now, tomorrow and forever. 6 months seems such a very long time to be without you....
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, Sam and Beatrice and beautiful Lucy. She is missed.
ReplyDeleteLove.
ReplyDeletehugs to you all. lucy (and you) have had such a tremendous impact on me in this journey. while i'm sad to know you in this way angie, I'm so very honored to get to know lucy through you....beautiful lucy, always remembered.
ReplyDeleteIn solidarity, here is a verse from the practice I dedicated to this milestone:
ReplyDelete(from the ritual to Chittamani Tara, a female emanation of the Buddha)
Homage! Golden-blue one, lotus
Water-born, in hand adorned!
Giving, effort, calm, austerities,
Patience, meditation her sphere!
Heartbreaking. Six months is such a long time. But, as Julia once said, it's also no time at all. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteRemembering you, Lucy, and missing you with your mami, your daddy, and your big sister.
ReplyDeleteAngie,
ReplyDeleteI'm hoping you feel my love and hope for you as you struggle with life while missing Lucia. I cried when I read your sister's comment. Lucy has a lot of love on her side.
Peace, my friend.
Beautiful and tragic, peaceful and cruel. So true.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry. Six months can seem like a blink of an eyelid and an eternity simultaneously.
Sweet Lucy.
xx
((hugs))
ReplyDeletemissing and praying with you.
Loved and missed the world over, your little girl is.
ReplyDeletexo
so beautiful and heartbreaking angie. six jixos, six prayers, six months. half a year. another solstice. i so wish that lucy were in your arms. sending you so much love
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I wish Lucy were here in your arms where she belongs. So much love to you, Sam & Bea.
ReplyDeleteA beautiful tribute to a beautiful girl. Missing Lucy with you...
ReplyDeleteStopping over from Lost & Found, I just wanted to leave my thoughts behind with you.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and your sweet little angel.
ReplyDelete((HUGS))
Crying for you my friend.
ReplyDeleteSweet Lucy we are all thinking of you today *hugs*
Angie - again, your writing has touched my heart. Missing and remembering Lucy with you today.. and always.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and your beautiful Lucy. And what G said. 6 months was really hard.
ReplyDeletexxoo
That was so beautiful and heart shattering to read. I ached over your story from the garage sale, not to be able to say you could relate. I think I would have been in shock. 86 years old, I didn't want to feel this ache for 60 more years or more. Love to you.
ReplyDeleteHi Angie - check out Lucia's Angel Wings on my blog.
ReplyDeleteLove to you
Love to you and Lucy on the six month solstice. I hope you are able to find more light these days than the complete and utter darkness of 6 months ago.
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