Saturday, October 9, 2010

Day 9- A photo you took since your loss

I'm not much of a photographer, but every so often I try to play with my point and shoot autofocus crap camera for the hell of it. In a deliberate, photographic way, rather than a journalistic way of capturing my family's daily goings on. Every picture in our family is pretty much taken by me, even the ones of me. My husband rarely remembers to photograph us, and when he does, it is because I have been nagging him to take a picture of me with the kids, so that they know that I was in fact in their lives as children. I actually worry about that--dying and my children not having an photographs of me. It is weird.

Anyway, I am writing a piece right this second involving my little peg family, which I painted when pregnant with Thor. I made a little peg person of each person in our family and Beezus plays with them. They always travel with us in our little gnome pocket, which is a felt bag full of little gnomes and peg people. Anyway, I took this photo, while taking a break from writing, and for some reason, I like it. Lucy is the fallen peg baby and the rest of us are in the background. As peg people. Alright, it sounds stupid in blog form.



14 comments:

  1. I don't think that is weird. I have that same fear of lack of photographs.

    Also, I don't think that it sounds stupid in blog form. I like that picture too.

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  2. it's not stupid at all.
    i like it.

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  3. I like that photo too, it makes sense.
    My dh doesn't think to take photos either, and I have that same fear you do, partly because my Dad died young and there are only a hand full of photographs in existence of him.

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  4. That's not stupid at all. I love it. <3

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  5. It must be a mom-as-photographer thing. I practically have to BEG to be in a picture, lest my child(ren )think I was absentee.

    Love the peg family.

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  6. I would worry about the same thing- even now when it's just the two of us, I have hundreds of vacation pictures of Alan and virtually none of me.

    I love the peg family- and everyone in it.

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  7. As for my photo, the one that comes to mind is the one I sent you for Bea. It's a hippo at the Camden Aquarium, watching a bunch of fish swim by. I am a terrible photographer, but an avid one, and I find that looking at life through the lens of a camera is very calming (left this off my list, but it's a big one for me). A photo like the hippo one reminds me that there is still, somewhere, a part of my brain that is tickled by the small moments and little bits of beauty and wonder out there.

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  8. I'm conflicted. I want more photos of me for my children but, usually, I hate photos of me and try to avoid them.

    I ADORE the peg people picture.

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  9. I love the photo. I love that Lucy is SO in focus while everyone else is a bit fuzzy. I feel badly about that with my family right now as we are going through this intense, early grief. I worry that my 12 year old might feel like I love her more than him because I'm not as in-tune as a mom right now for my boys. He was an only child until a year and a half ago. Now he is competing with two siblings. I know he'd feel a bit off even if she was here, all the time newborns take and all...but now he seems to feel the need to take care of me and that's not his job yet. So yes, I love your photo. It made me think of all these things. Very moving.

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  10. luv the peg family - and the photo is perfect

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